A Change of Pace

I am not, by definition, an optimist.

Shocked yet? Didn’t think so.

I use this blog mainly as a sounding board for my thoughts on a variety of topics, and for the most part, it works pretty well as an exercise in in free writing as well. Not being in school had left me without a direct, mandated reason to write, and so as a result I simply stopped. Not intentionally, but just because I didn’t have to anymore, and it wasn’t a natural thing for me to do.

I love to write, however, and I love to read. I spend a good part of my day every day doing one or the other. And I would like to be able to make this someplace where I am not only writing for myself, but for others as well. As it is, I’m stuck between delusions of grandeur and dejected defeatism when it comes to what to do with this blog – namely, that I quickly get bored with writing if I know that there will be no one reading it. As a fairly new venture, I’m at a loss for how to handle this other than just to force myself to write and hope something will happen. Looking back at the blog you can see how well this has worked – regular updates for a couple weeks followed by a two or three month haitus. Not exactly consistency.

And yet lately I’ve had plenty on my mind to talk about to coworkers, friends, and family that could easily be put to paper and posted here. Most of it involving politics or the Christian’s reponse to modern culture. I feel like I am being heavy-handed when I write on these subjects, though, and as a result I get almost afraid to write what I’m thinking about, because I fear it will drive people away rather than cause them to continue reading.

There’s that optimism again.

But I still want to write. I want to make this blog something that I can be proud of, and the easiest way to do that would be to just start blogging everything that comes to mind and just hope people find a few interesting things here and there. I’m not a brilliant writer, and I’m rarely happy with what I write, but the act of writing is cathartic, and it gives me something to point to as an accomplishment. So what the hell, I’ll just start writing whatever I want, and if you want to stick around and read, be my guest.

Thanks to Rachel for getting me thinking about this, even as she steps away from her genius political posts. I’ll still be there for her scathing wit, though. Oh, and dogs. Gotta love the dogs.

So how ’bout them Cardinals, eh?

New sidebar links!

Just added links to blogs of a couple good friends, Brian Aaby and Leanna Jackson.

Brian is an ex-youth pastor and mentor of mine living in Washington, where he has just started up a small company called Youthmark. Youthmark seeks to provide youth ministers and youth groups with the training, resources, and experience necessary to minister to those around them. His blog is about both his efforts getting the business up and running, as well as his day-to-day life.

Leanna is… well, I barely know where to begin. She’s one of the most joyful people I have ever met and a source of constant inspiration and joy of my own. She’s been through a lot and managed to somehow keep being that joyful person.  We met through an online music community about eight years ago, and have been friends ever since. Now that I have finally found her blog, so I’m passing it along to share it with all of you.

In other news, my new job is actually rather interesting and certainly keeping me very busy. It’s a bit of an odd job for sure, and not what I’d expected, but interesting. Hopefully those leaving for a long holiday weekend today will have a good, and safe, weekend.

I’m back

I apologize to my few readers for being gone so long – I had things catch up to me in real life that kept me from posting anything here. I felt quite dried up because of it, and just lost the will to do anything here. But, now, I want to get back into it, so I’m gonna give this another run.

I’m going to include some Bible studies I am working on, as they’re currently my only real inspiration to write – hopefully I will be able to inspire myself through them and other means. I’ve just started an informal study with my old friend and mentor, Brian Aaby,  who I don’t think keeps an active blog anymore, but if I find otherwise will update this post. It’s on the relationships of Christ, with the goal of finding out what Christ felt and thought as he went about his day in order that we can emulate him, in order to approach the world with the attitude and character of Christ.

Ah, it’s good to be back! :)

Obligatory hello world post

After the results of the poll I took at Livejournal came out with better-than-expected results, I figured I’d give this a shot. WordPress provides me with much more flexibility and control than Livejournal, and allows me to play around with some things I’ve never really done before. I figure the bulk of my writing will come here now, and maybe I’ll update over there when I post here or something so that everyone knows I’m still alive. We might even be in for more regular posting with the new environment. Miracles do happen, you know.

So, let me bid you welcome to my new (web) home. Have a seat, grab a drink, and get comfortable, ’cause here goes nothing!